I want a New Cheese for a Change...

There's a book titled 'Who moved my cheese' by Dr. Spencer Johnson. Sinabe samen ng prof namen in Human Relations that we should read this book. As I was reading it, the new cheese that being talked about is change.

Cheese = Change.

To find the new cheese, you must first find new paths on taking the way to it. Yet, these mice have different point of views. One, does willing to fin new cheese and takes risks to find the new cheese. But the other does not want to take the risks of finding new ways, paths and doesn't want change. He fears if he does not succeed to it. But because the first mice did whatever it takes to find the cheese and even changed his course in life, he succeed. Because he tried, he gained from it.

Yes, it's hard to change for new if you're used in the old life. But isn't it great tp find you're life more interesting to have when you feel like changing. Sabe ko dati, gusto kong may thrill sa life. Kase I thought I was bored. Now, over thrilling, dameng problema. But now I know my life isn't bored that time, It was just peaceful. And I should be thankful, right?

I want to be the first mice in the story, i wanted to explore new things, paths & directions. So that I wouldn't be stuck in such an old life. Yet, minsan natatalot akong baguhin ang mga bagay-bagay kase natatakot akong mag-fail. I fear to lose things if I change. So far, yun ang naiisip ko. But I do still think that  the first mice did great on finding change.

I have decided some things that I want to clear to myself and to those involved. I want to change back to old way of life yet improving myself. Gusto kong bumalik sa peaceful life. Nope.I 'm wanting a new cheese/ change in my old-peaceful-without-problem-life. It's great that I'm gaining new knowledge of what life really is. How life is real. Real course of life... I'll make that happen on my conditions that I'll be taking onwards. 'Kay. I'll make that happen...:)

---I'll be going to school later...

Good Night:)

Sana maging maganda ang dream ko tonight! Sana may pagka-romantic! haha! Ambisyosa. Please no nightmares....

Before going to sleep tonight. Thank God for guiding us today. Ask for apologies that we have done of sins.And ask for blessings that we have received today. Pray.And Smile before you sleep :) Have a nice sleep everyone...Goodnight:)

IN or OUT?

Araw-araw nalang ganon. Pakiramdam mo lagi kang out sa sarili mong circle of friends. Yes, kasama mo sila kaso yung feeling na di ka pa din belong. What do I mean, 'belong'? Yung maluwag sa dibdib mo na nakikipagtawanan at alam mong 'friends mo nga sila talaga. You feel at ease with them. To think na, you thought of having such great friends that you'll surely had. You EVER had. Belongingness, is part of huma's life. Kaya nga 'NO Man is an Island.' Pero yun ang di ko nararamdaman sa kanila. Para ba maging belong, kelangan pa bang 'I should be like them as well'? NO, right? I'm not me anymore. Di ko maunderstand ang sarili ko. Iba na ko. Di na ko jolly. Di na din funny, talkative. And I always LIE. As is LIE. I lied of being happy with them. Kahit I feel out sometimes. Yes, everytime nalang naiirita ako. Naiirita sa lahat ng bagay patungkol dun. You'd think there are friends na anjan sayo palage? You'd think na lage sila nanjan. There's NO PERMANENT in this world! Lahat nawawala. All dies. All withers. Going back, di ako naiinis kundi  naiirita lang. hAng dameng mapapapel sa mundo. Ang dameng pa-upstage. Sige, sa inyo na spotlight. BIDA-BIDA kayo eh. haha. Di ko alam if I'm just thinking of it pero don't blame eto nararamdaman ko.

I admit na iniisip ko din if tama bang maramdaman ko to? Tama bang mafeel ko to? Teka di ako nagiging tao nito. I'm thinking na di ako nagogrow as a person pag kasama ko sila. I don't know If paranoid lang ako. Sometimes, pag ikaw na ang nagsasalita.. (you can hear cricket sounds.) GAWD! Badtrip yun. Tapos paepal pag nagsasalita ka tapos eentrada. Sige, ikaw naulet! Eto mic para lahat makarinig!

Di ko talaga magets kung ako ata ang mali dito. Ako ata di belong. Nagkahiwalay lang for quite sometimes then changed na kagad. What the HELL. Then maririnig mo na dati sila  bestfriends ngayon kame na. Ano toh. Basketball? Di ka lang attentive, steal na kagad. Grabeh may ganon pala. I don't think bad at that. Pero ang masabihan ng ganon. What the fuck. Fine. So what kung sinabe ko yun. Blame me for being like this but you cannot change the fact that these are things that I have complains about. These are the things that I see with bare naked eyes.

Closest friends? Best friends? Friends?

You still don't know who your true friends are, arent you?...

Fortune Cookie alert!

 

 

"You are admired by everyone for your talent and ability."

 

...naman ano ba talent ko? Maliban sa kumaen..haahaa! Kumanta! weh~! Sumayaw! Ai??? Geh! kumaen nalang nga! :D hahahaha! joke:]

 

pero kung may naniniwala pa din saken na meron nga,,, salamat:D 

I am a fool...

Are you doing that just to discourage me?
Just to make me feel sad and angry?
Just to think that we're not meant?
One thing I want to do to you.
I want to PUNCH IN YOUR FACE.
I want to KICK your FACE.
I WANT TO SHOW YOU THAT YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY PERSON I CAN FALL FOR..
YOU DUMBASS! SHIT I CRIED FOR A WORTHLESS PERSON!
Your way overboard. Its okay for me if your flirting with my friends. but wjen that happens.
THE GAME IS OVER! THE FRIENDSHIP IS OVER!
DONT CARE IF WE WERE RUINED BY A PERSON.
I DONT BLAME & ENVY U& OTHERS.
ILL JUST SHUT UP!
AND YOU SHOULD SHUT UP TOO! :[

U.Failed.U.Stand.

"When u failed u stand,
Get up while you can..."

--wala lang,,, dameng pressure! pero okay lang! ilang dapa! dapat mas marame pa ang tayo! WOOT! ano daw? puchu-meanings yan!!! haahaahaa!!! DAPA at TAYO!!! Alien!

what do i LOVE? aside from eating :]

What Do I LOVE?:)

What do I L.O.V.E.?

v     Loves to compose poems and songs

v     Loves to watch anime

v     Loves to watch a movie marathon at home

v     Loves to eat

v     Loves to sound tripping

v     Loves to sleep

v     Loves to go somewhere fun

v     Loves God and myself

v     Loves to Cosplay anime

v     Loves to collect anime items

v     Loves to keep valuable items from close family and friends

v     Loves to collect stationery papers and stickers

v     Loves the color pink and black

v     Loves to watch band gigs

v     Loves to play with her niece

v     Loves babies and children

v     Loves to hang-out with friends

v     Loves to talk with God

v     Loves to be with her family

v     Loves the cold breeze NOWJ

v     Loves to have snow here in the Philippines

v     Loves to eat Korean food dishes in TONG YANG shabu-shabuJ

v     Loves to share and listen thoughts from friends

v     Loves to cook (even though I’m not a proJ)

I really love shota cute boys.. I duuno why but I think that's ONE of my fetishes.Those who look femininely cute guys... Ugh.. why does it have to be gays when I thought about feminine guys?! UNFAIR! well, here's my SHOTA-lovenest! lovenest? hahaha:D LOVE! LOVE! LOVE!

  

Its not in order coz I dont want to rate them coz all of them are my top shota boys:]

Building up motivation on my upcoming FINALS T_T

...tensions building up on me while the days are coming near. I dont know what topic to start! Its only 2 weeks before my Major exam. And i am still not ready for it. I dont want to repeat the subject again. Besides, its my major so I shouldnt be a NEGA-girl right now! (SIGHED) okay! I can do it! I know I can! Go! Being a CPA Lawyer! Woot! Well, I just boosted up! Back to study again! hahaha:D

the END is not near...Its only the BEGINNING!